Written on June 17, 2010 while in San Diego;
A loved one once told me that when she looked out at the ocean she felt so alone. She had lived on the ocean for many years and whenever she looked out her window she would get lost in the never ending ocean and it made her feel so small and insignificant. I have thought about that conversation often, especially whenever I find myself sitting on the beach, overlooking the ocean, which I am doing right now.
I am amazed by how we are all affected differently by different things. She looks out at the ocean and feels lonely and depressed. Right now, as I look out at the ocean, I feel a sense of peace and renewed hope. The waves come rolling in and they seem to be telling me that life will go on and everything will work out. My heart has been in a constant state of worry and stress the past couple of months. I suddenly realized awhile back that I was unhappy and that for me to be able to find happiness again I needed to make some changes in my life--changes that would cause me to really think about my life and make some decisions that would help me to grow.
I've been able to escape to the ocean and as I've been here the past three days, the discomfort and uneasiness in my heart are beginning to crumble and peace and hope have been breaking through. And as I watch more and more waves roll in, and as I feel the breeze from the ocean on my face, I am beginning to relax.
I just now realized that the consistency of the waves rolling into shore is the same consistency in which God's hand has been in my life. No matter where I am, what time of day it is, or whatever emotion I may be feeling, God has always been with me and has never abandoned me. Just like these waves will never stop rolling into shore. I can curse the waves, ignore the waves, wish for the waves to disappear, but they will stay there, coming in, never stopping. God is in my life. I might curse Him, ignore Him, or wish He was gone, but He remains by my side.
Even now as I sit here watching the water, He is here with me. He is easing my troubled heart and reminding me that I am loved. The waves are rolling in and my heart has been filled with hope.
I am ready to roll!
I am amazed by how we are all affected differently by different things. She looks out at the ocean and feels lonely and depressed. Right now, as I look out at the ocean, I feel a sense of peace and renewed hope. The waves come rolling in and they seem to be telling me that life will go on and everything will work out. My heart has been in a constant state of worry and stress the past couple of months. I suddenly realized awhile back that I was unhappy and that for me to be able to find happiness again I needed to make some changes in my life--changes that would cause me to really think about my life and make some decisions that would help me to grow.
I've been able to escape to the ocean and as I've been here the past three days, the discomfort and uneasiness in my heart are beginning to crumble and peace and hope have been breaking through. And as I watch more and more waves roll in, and as I feel the breeze from the ocean on my face, I am beginning to relax.
I just now realized that the consistency of the waves rolling into shore is the same consistency in which God's hand has been in my life. No matter where I am, what time of day it is, or whatever emotion I may be feeling, God has always been with me and has never abandoned me. Just like these waves will never stop rolling into shore. I can curse the waves, ignore the waves, wish for the waves to disappear, but they will stay there, coming in, never stopping. God is in my life. I might curse Him, ignore Him, or wish He was gone, but He remains by my side.
Even now as I sit here watching the water, He is here with me. He is easing my troubled heart and reminding me that I am loved. The waves are rolling in and my heart has been filled with hope.
I am ready to roll!
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